do you ever get the feeling that something was so true & is now is a complete lie & things never seem to go right for you, deaths always an option but you want to live because you care about so many people, that dont even care about you i shouldnt have to cry everynight it makes me feel sick, but even if i dont cry i still get pain either way i guess i do it because i give myself attention but i wont let anyone else see me that way because they’d ask why? why are you in so much deep pain, i cant explain myself, this is all about a boy like most things in my life not lots of boys one boy one special person who can make my day with his sweet words, he says he loves me for who i am but things are so hard to believe these days, i just want to call him mine.